Just Thoughts

It's hard to not notice the subject of valentines this month. Perhaps you noticed that I haven't posted about Valentines Day yet. In all reality, Valentines Day wasn't much different for me because of that title. I went and helped out a friend with some housecleaning on that day, so that's mainly why it was different.

I'm not sure what to say, really. I don't have a sweetheart. (Unless you include my Savior.) Some may say that their heart belongs to their father until they give their heart to their husbands. Personally, I don't agree with this way of thought. My heart (i.e. my soul) belongs to God. My heart (i.e. my emotions, desires, etc.) are to be kept for my husband alone. Neither of these do I give to my dad (and it's not commanded in the Bible like some claim).

We are commanded to "Watch over your heart with all diligence, For from it flow the springs of life." Proverbs 4:23

So, at this point I don't have a fiancee, husband, or earthly sweetheart of any kind (though Little Man agreed off and on to be my valentine).  

What can a single lady say then? Well, I could talk about many things. Purity, waiting for your husband, being active where you are, benefits of being single, etc. Problem is, I've seen that other people already talk about this, and I've talked about it a little already. I will admit, I like looking at wedding photography (like this blog).

I was thinking though, there are things that I enjoy doing now that won't happen when I'm married someday, if the Lord wills it. Just one of thos things is that I sleep on the top bunk. After I get married, I doubt I will ever sleep in a bunk bed again. =( At this point, when I help take care of my sibbies, I don't have the job of training them, teaching them, and making 'executive decisions' concerning them/their wellfare. Someday, when I have my own littles, I will have all these responsibilities before God.

At this point, I just really want to know God. I mean, of course I hope to court and marry someday, but even in all that, I want to know God. I want my man and marriage to point me to God.

In the meantime, I will admit, it's easy to waste time, be lazy, think about things to do without actually doing it. I will admit, I haven't worked much on my book. I don't want to disappoint, but there are a couple reasons for this. 1) Sometimes when I try to work on it, GoogleDocs encounters an error (several times over) and I can't get anything done. 2)I've lost passion/inspiration/interest in my novel, because I've researched and thought about it so much, it's almost as if I've become bored with it. Of course, I know other people who haven't read it might be interested in it, and until I finish it, some of them can't read it. And I shouldn't stop when the going gets tough. 

I've noticed that when I was little, I wrote a lot, about things that never would've happened, and I enjoyed it. Now, I know reality, and I try to right with a purpose/moral. I don't want to write mindless entertainment. So, it limits a lot of what I can write. And it seems like I'm just not into it as much as I used to. Though I still like thinking of stories. Now I've learned how much work it is. And it kinda saddens me, but I also think about what am I doing? What am I doing that's worthwhile?

Well, in other random news, I hemmed a skirt that needed it. Not exciting, but it's just another 'happening' in my life. =) Yesterday, I went to the thrift store with my sister and got a cute red kids bench for just $10! I got myself a sweater and backpack. A little hat for my baby sister, and a shower curtain liner. Oh, and a shower curtain that doesn't match our bathrooms. It is destined for my hopechest. =)

Look for a post on Feb. 24th; an interview with author Alyssa Liljequiest! =)

Have a great week!